~Rya~

Myself - Where have I Gone?

Finding motivation through the depths of my soul -

looking harder - seeking further

all i see is something spiraling out of control

As i look around and see peoples faces

thinking of how much more i am and should be

-than stuck in these familiar places

Who am i ? Where am i? What am i?

Girl - Here - Lost

How am i here - if i am still lost

A mind confined…

Hold myself back - as i seek myself

What do i see…

A person

Hurt - Damaged - Torn -

Seeking Motivation - Putting Back The Pieces

From Where?!? Myself!?!?

I hold myself back - from life - from love - from the past

I have cursed myself for the future

I’m So in control - that control doesn’t exist

I’m so lonely - looking for a fix

Excuses here - excuses there

For love for life for what comes my way

When will I see the day??

That I take back myself

Build myself together - stop blaming the past

All the bad weather - I hold onto excuses

To Get Me By..

To live for failure - not hurt my pride

But a little too late - I’m dying inside

I want to burst out of this Depression

Is this my confession? To Me

Finally Admitting what others See - or not..

I wonder when will i break from this shell

That dooms myself - to this life called hell

I Guess Realizing Denial is the First Step!